Finding my Style ft. Andy

The idea of personal style has never been something I would associate with myself. Style was something that belonged to beautiful, thin women. The clothes I wanted to me would never go with my body type. So I shied away from wearing anything other than jeans and a t-shirt.

As a kid I loved bright dresses. I loved dressing like a princess and it made me feel royal. But as I grew older I became more subdued. Growing up in South Africa meant most of what I wore was school uniform. A plaid skirt, a navy pull over and a button up shirt. As ugly as they were it took the thought of having to dress nicely.

However as I grew older and I grew larger I found myself struggling to find my style. I tended towards a more tomboyish look. Larger shirts to hide my stomach and larger breasts. Long pants to stop the thigh rub and to hide the fact that i didn’t like how big my legs are. And becasue I didn’t feel pretty I tended to not wear makeup or do my hair. It hurt my confidence and make me feel ugly. If I wanted to dress nicely I found it harder to do because of how expensive plus size clothing is and how little of an option you have when it comes to the syles.

From Torrid.com

The style that I have always wanted to exude is a whimsical rocker. Leather jackets and boots, with flowey blouses.

From https://www.pinterest.ca/pin/101542166578216451/

And it is a clothing sytle I have been trying to bring into my life in the past year. As I try to find my style I find it has brought out my self confidence that I never knew was there. Not only do I find myself being more comfortable in this style of clothing but I feel I draw people’s eyes to me but I walk taller. I feel more like me.

My staple for my style is my denim jacket. A piece I have had for many years and surprisingly still fits me even if it is falling apart. I recently invested in a beautiful wide brimmed fedora from Gigi Pip Hats to go with my nomadic spirit aesthetic. To complete the look I want to invest in a second hand leather jacket (maybe with some tassels). And I will top it all off with my sparkly boots that have a Doc Marten-esque look to them.

Confidence is key in finding your style and this time I feel like despite my size I have found something I can actually feel comfortable and beautiful in!